The decision to give up my life and career in the city was by no means an easy one. Being stuck in a comfort zone is easy, moving out from that zone into the unknown is difficult and scary.
"Thinking" !! Something I do to much, I am told, was what I did a lot during this process of decision making. And praying, looking for guidance from God. My health forced me to go through this process and this struggle got me to Life Stories.
I wrote down my whole Life Story, from where I had memories up to November 2011. I wrote about everything, the good, the bad, the happy, the sad, that is what Life is, after all... a journey consisting of high's and low's and what I call in-betweens, the bits where life happens while you are busy.
Reading my Life Story aloud afterwards was an experience which gave me perspective on my life. On the things I chose to be part of my Life Story and the things I didn't choose, choices made by parents, husbands, employers, family and friends that I had to live with and built my life around. It wasn't an easy experience, reliving some parts of my life, others brought back happy and positive feelings. I looked at it holistically. As a journey, a journey of growth and learning, a journey that brought me where I was in November 2011, a journey who made me who I am today. And I felt content with who I am...
Then I went time travelling... I went to ten years from now and I looked back over my life as if I had already lived the next ten years. And I wrote my Life Story for the next ten years, as I would like it to be. Liberating indeed !!
Making the decision after that was easy. Writing down my Life Story made me realise so many things - That life is truly a journey... That the choices you make everyday, or the ones you don't make, gives way to what will form part of your journey, your Life Story a year or two or ten down the line and at the end of your journey.
So here I am...
Slowly but surely creating my Life Story and searching for Muchness... One day at a time...
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